Growing up, I was always told to watch what I do because, you know, God is always watching. I think back on it now and I think boy wasn’t that creepy! Imagine the idea of this big, old guy with a long beard and a staff watching everything you do…EVERYTHING….CREEPY!!!As I grew up, though, I learnt to appreciate that knowledge. When I attempted to do something craycray I remembered He was watching, when I was super scared, too, I was reminded that God is watching and I shouldn’t be afraid. It shifted from that creepy guy to the cool bigger kid in school who always has your back typa thing. I had THE main G covering me always!!
I grew up with that idea, I played around with it. When we had a card game and I suspected a friend was cheating I would tell them, God is watching. When someone asked me for advice on how to proceed with a certain activity or what not, it was natural for me to say that, when it came down to it God was watching every step that they took.
These past few weeks, though, God has been reminding me that, in as much as He is always watching He is also ALWAYS SPEAKING!!!He doesn’t just watch from the corner, he starts a conversation. In fact, he encourages a conversation whether we choose to listen or not. These thoughts came as a result of an experience that I had two weekends ago, a sensation (of sorts) that I have not experienced before. I will share an excerpt from my phone journal:
“So I’m at this place where my ears are totally blocked and I feel like Jesus is like, listen to me now. And He says, write it down, these things that I will say to you write them down. As I listen more and as I write more, I feel everything else moves further away, and it keeps going further. The Lord speaks…”
A little bit of background, I was sitting on the lawn at the World Mandate conference surrounded by 26 or so other international friends. It was loud, numerous conversations were going on. It would have been so easy to ignore that voice and focus on the conversations, the food and the friends but in that I was to be taught a lesson. In those minutes, all 10 of them, I felt connected to The Lord in a way that I hadn’t felt connected to Him in a while. He took the time to talk to me, to bond with me. He was so kind as to take me aside amidst everyone that was around me.
It was such a reminder of how He can, and wants to, connect with us regardless of where we are and who we are with. It was also a gentle reminder that I don’t have to be in a certain predetermined location or mental state for Him to speak. I don’t know about anyone else but I know that, for me, school assignments, work and life usually get in the way of my time with Jesus. I often defend “not hearing him” by saying that I just couldn’t be alone in my room or living room to spend some one on one time with him. But through this he gave me a gentle push towards self-introspection. A conversation of whether it’s me or him. He reminded me that I cannot put him in a pretty purple box because that is just not how he works.
In that, I have been encouraged to take a different perspective in my conversations with The Lord. I remind myself every morning that He is speaking to me in that moment, that I can choose to either listen or ignore him. That if I ignore him he will continue to speak still. It also spoke into excuses that I make, and was a reminder that I can enjoy God’s presence everywhere that I am: be it on the bus, in the line at Starbucks, while I wait between classes or even as I walk around campus. Every moment is an opportunity for the Holy Spirit to minister to me and a chance for The Father to speak to me. And that is amazing!!!
So next time you think, like me, that you don’t have the resources or the opportunity to talk to The Father, remember He is talking to you even in that moment. When you feel like you don’t hear him and he has gone quite – maybe try and listen closer and if still you don’t hear him speak, be encouraged by the fact that he is always watching!!!
“For God [does reveal His will; He] speaks not only once, but more than once, even though men do not [perceive it].
[One may hear God’s voice] in a dream, in a vision of the night, when deep sleep falls on men while slumbering upon the bed,” Job 33:14-15 [AMP]